F#$%!

Alright, so I decided to make a conscious effort to eliminate cursing from my vocabulary. I know..... I know.....

However, I have become a bit embarrassed by it lately, especially because I never even hear the curses coming out of my mouth. I am a person who controls a lot of things and cursing is just not one of them, yet.

So, I did some research (yes it exists) and two days ago I wrote about things that make me curse, why I think I swear so much, and a list of reasons on why I want to stop cursing. The one thing this exercise has done is make me aware of the curses.

I cursed two times yesterday at work within two sentences and twice today. Today was a bit funnier as I was speaking to our receiving person and I said, "This person does this all the f$%^^$g time, f!#k I cursed."

The main reason I would prefer not to curse is that I would rather have Nadia hear them elsewhere so I can speak with her about them in a way that she respects me.

I have begun to realize my language is going to become more and more important in my career as I move on. I need to be more articulate and at least appear to be more intelligent. Dropping out cuss words will certainly help with both.

I even asked Tash to gently remind me if she hears me curse. She asked how should I do that? I said gently because I really have no idea why the thing I read said should ask for gentle reminders. I guess it is to avoid discouragement.

Yeah, I am that weird.